tinderboxofaheart

The background: last year MCR announced the second US leg of the Long Live the Black Parade tour, with the city/date closest to me being Oct. 24 in L.A.. The Stroppy One sighed at the inevitable, and cass404 braved the Ticketmaster queue to get us tickets. the Ticketmaster online queue to get us tickets. Then MCR announced the final two shows of the tour, both in L.A.: Oct. 30 & 31. Cue much wailing from me, because there was no way I could afford to stay in L.A. for a week.

Last weekend, the Stroppy One suggested I ask Cass if I could stay at her place for a week, and the we head back to L.A. for the concerts. I stared, asked if he was okay with me missing our anniversary to go see MCR. He pointed out that he wouldn’t have suggested it if he wasn’t, just see if tickets were available you silly head.

So! After conferring with Cass, I’m going to see if any tickets are available. Because spending time with Cass is something I desperately miss, and omg my precious cupcakes of bombast.

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- While I still love love love this dress from a Ukrainian designer, I went to another website to ogle an embroidered long linen jacket that I've also pined over, and now I can't decide which to buy in a few weeks. I'm now leaning toward the linen piece, because that would be more versatile.

- I spent some time idly searching for granny and/or "Victorian" boots across eBay, Poshmark, and Depop, and let me tell you, there is nothing out there with combination of a pointed or almond toe shape, lace-up, a side zipper, and a 2" block or walking heel. But then I had the possibly brilliant thought of taking a pair of my existing lace-up boots to a cobbler to have a side zip put in. I need to ponder this some more, but I sense a trip to the cobbler in my future.

- Remember that fabric with the Haunted Mansion wallpaper print on AliExpress? It arrived, and the print quality is good! The actual color isn't pink, but a bright wine, which also works for me. When the Stroppy One saw the fabric, he told me to order more, as he wants a waistcoat in it, and possibly a jacket.

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I'm constantly tired, no matter how much sleep I get, and I'm having non-stop stress nightmares every night. Dear Brain, a nightmare of the Stroppy One presenting us with divorce papers because we got his coffee order wrong is ridiculous, as is the one where he abandons me at airport security and walks off with my passport and Clovis Devilbunny. RIDICULOUS, STOP IT.

carisma_sensei

I've always wanted to watch Berserk, but never got around doing it. Believe it or not, when I was a teen I read the comics, well, not all of them, but some of the volumes that a friend lent my sister. Was I too young for that crazy violent shit? Sure. Would I read it anyway? Of course hahaha.

So today, I started watching the anime... and oh boy, are we in for a ride here. Don't let me get started on how much of it we can find in Dark Souls, because I guess everyone knows by now. But holy cow (I just typed holy coq and was tempted to leave it like that, but let's behave a bit here).

Anyway, while watching episode 2, I got the urge to make some icons. And I was amused by the fact that I can literaly take a screenshot with "imp paint" and paste it on photoshop from Netflix. We could not do this shit with regular videos before! (before meaning eons ago lol). So yeah, I got me some new icons of these pretty creatures.

Just like I did with this post, I thought it would be great to share today's icons, since they do not qualify for a proper batch to post at my graphics community lol. So here they are! Feel free to take, use, and leave me a comment if you also love Berserk ♥

I've always had an obsession with Casca. That character blew my mind when I was a teen. Love Berserk urgh help.

Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Lack Of Higher Purpose - Silent Hill inspired ambience music (Survival Spheres)

carisma_sensei

At all. Like, it started with somewhat good news, then it all slowly went a bit downhill. I was so sad yesterday, I didn't touch the frontend course at all. But today, despite still feeling bad, I managed to finish the HTML part successfully. Now I'm in the CSS part, and I'm actually learning a lot of stuff I didn't know how to do before, so that's great! I'm very scared with starting JavaScript, but we'll see. I'll let you know how that goes, hopefully next month.

Besides that, I've changed both my profile and my layout. The banner I'm using for the profile is new, I'm trying to make new stuff here and there when I feel inspired. However, the current layout is not new, I made this for myself and used for a loooong time before. It's back now I guess lol. I love Please Save My Earth ♥

a pretty layout design featuring Alice of Please Save My Earth manga in the header, with purple-ish tones

You can click on the image to see a full preview of the design, in case I end up changing my layout before you see it
Anyway... there's not much more to tell right now. I'm going back to reading some more theory on CSS, and then go to bed. As I said, my mood's not been great. I hope things sort out somehow, and I can go back to my usual self soon. I hate feeling like this.

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Silent Hill music compilation

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I spent almost $2000 on plumbing repair today.

carisma_sensei

I may or may not end up buying my own domain AGAIN. After years of letting my last domain rot to death. The spark came from studying frontend development, as you may have read in my previous posts, but also because I found the personal site of a girl who also let her own domain rot, but came back in 2025 after many years of inactivity. And... that resonates lol. So, who knows. I may do it. Maybe just start with Neocities haha! Maybe go all the way and buy my domain. But I would need a name and I'm very undecissive. So...

Current Mood: thoughtful

in the gold dust rush

Fangirl geebling

(still) pondering shallow consumerism (always)

Berserk.

Today was not a great day

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Getting the itch for my own domain hehe